Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Farewell again sweet girl...

August 10, 2002 - August 26, 2002
Today is the final indulgent day for me to share your name and story with the world. 
It was your 16th day of life 12 years ago today. It was (is) the very worst day any parent can ever have. Nobody should have to go through it, especially because we already have. 
It has changed me forever. Although I learned a lot, nothing is worth being without you.
That ache I have for you first thing every morning and during each day without you will never go away. It is both my nemesis and my fuel.  
So, goodbye, publicly, for another year, Madison Joan. I feel your absence every day. I love you and miss you with all of my heart. 
 Love, Mommy

Sunday, August 10, 2014

In memory, my girl...

These are her actual footprints.  She weighed 1 pound 7 ounces and was 12 inches long.

 Madison Joan Friel 
August 10, 2002 - August 26, 2002.
Happy birthday my extraordinary, valiant daughter. 
12 years ago today, you let us know that even though mommy was upside-down in the hospital trying to keep you there, you decided you were coming anyway! 
I ache for you first thing every morning and innumerable times during each day without you.  It was both an eternity ago and just a moment ago simultaneously.
Today, indulgently, I share your name and story with anyone I can. 
I will love you forever, Mommy.